My father is scheduled to have a tumor removed tomorrow at 2:30 P.M. CST, God willing. This tumor was found unexpectedly just two weeks ago during a colonoscopy. They actually went further in than for a standard colonoscopy and found this growth in his appendix. Good news is it's small and not even visible on a CT scan, but we're still all scared stiff. We're still scared stiff. This is pretty serious surgery, with 4-6 weeks to recover. It's conceivable he might not make it, though I suppose that's unlikely. The real worry is not that he won't be with us after tomorrow afternoon, but that what they find when they get inside might mean he won't be here much longer.
I'd grieve a long time if any other member of my family were lost, but that wouldn't leave me with the same sense of terror about the future. I watched "It's a Wonderful Life" Saturday night with Sarah and it was amazing how many little details I saw and wanted to call my dad and ask his take on. (It's our favorite movie, all right?) If I want to consult him over little things like that, how am I going to survive if he's not here for real life questions?