Why is it that ever since I took this job (September last year) I feel like such a lame programmer? Before I took this job I thought I was good. A good programmer, hacker, coder, whatever. Now I just feel like a dumb ass.
Is this part of moving on? Part of a different environment? It's not like I moved into a top-o-the-line hacking house. I'm the only programmer (sans my boss)
At my previous job, something that I couldn't figure out didn't turn into a problem that made me feel stupid, it was just a challenge that we worked on together. Is that a rare environment?
Am I just a neive youth to think that problems or challenges or my own ineptitude with new things should be an opportunity for me to grow? Instead it seems that they are a chance to make me feel like a jack ass.
Should I have all the right answers, all the knowledge, no flaws, every algorithm tucked in my brain or at my finger tips? If I should, then fine, I'll work harder at becoming perfect. I have to say though, I know I'll fail. When I do, how will I be made to feel?
So I'm left asking myself, wtf?