And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
Not the board game type, either.
I've lacked true, gainful employment for the past seven months or so (maybe longer, I don't really want to go check right now). Part of the reason for this has been that I can skate on the VA money I get for being in school.
Over the summer, however, I won't be taking a full classload and will probably not get as much money. I need to get a job over the summer -- and if I can't get a job hacking something, I'll have to go ask for a job at what's left of envisionEt or Subway.
Even if I can get a job coding something, there's no guarantee that I'll be able to put it on a resume. Some of the leads I have point to porn-style jobs.
To be truthful, I'm not entirely sure I'm ready for this kind of work yet. I wasn't sure I could swim when I first went, but I did; I wasn't sure I could drive when I first tried, and I couldn't.
I guess I'll find out.
Any advice -- about what I can do, how best to look, how best to present myself, how best to dress or talk or anything -- will be greatly appreciated.