Doubt is no enemy of mine -- doubt is a helpful friend. Doubt helps me where it doesn't help others, because they feel bad about doubt. I don't feel bad about doubting something I did or something I have -- if I never question it, it could be useless or worthless and I would never know it.
So the doubtful thinking leads me to the possibility that I'm not really made to be what I think I want to be, a freelance web person.
Maybe my doubt is correct. Perhaps I really don't have the ability to sell myself, to seek out new jobs regularly, etc.
Now, the second one's not a huge huge issue -- people do occasionally find contracts longer than a week, I hear -- but I'm starting to think my doubt is dead on about me not being able to sell myself.
I don't even like the phrase.
Anyway, I've been looking through Ask The Head Hunter and I'm starting to think maybe I should just ask someone else to sell me instead. Maybe I should ask someone I know who doesn't seem terribly unable to sell things to people.
I used to be pretty good at it, I thought. But I've spent a long time away from trying to convince people of things, and maybe I just kind of lost the knack.
So, I'm considering asking someone else to act as a headhunter for me.